Dear Dylan ,

Today, you are five.

I love you.
I love you a thousand times, and then a thousand times over again.
We butt heads, sometimes.
We blow up at each other, sometimes.
It always comes back to I love you,I will always  whisper into your ears in the night, kiss onto your eyelids when you are  asleep ,Hold you tight  when you have a bad dream.
All because I love you son.KIAMA 2

You spend hours playing, asking me how to spell words . You are so very bright, so attentive, so independent and yet so loving.
We’ve had a difficult years, but we have made it to where we are.
sometime it feels like an impossibly big job , this task of raising you up into the man that you will become. I’m not sure if I’m good enough or big enough or enough enough, but son  I try.I may never be enough but I will always try.
I have done my best to surround you with stability and happiness and love.


Today, on your fifth birthday, I want you to know that I’m proud of you.
I love you, and I and will always love you and I wish you the happiest day.
I wish you the happiest future, and I will do my best to make it for you.

It is a joy to be your mother.

Have the happiest day.